Crazy

Talked to Hawk again yesterday. God he drives me crazy...
The other night when I was at his house,(like I said in a previous post) he told me that if I ever got to where I could be happy with Jeff alone, to go and be happy. I was thinking that I could never see myself without Hawk in my life. I have thought more about it, though, and if Jeff did get a divorce (which I'm not counting on, btw) I would marry him and leave Hawk alone once and for all. I could have a very happy, "normal" life with Jeff. I love him like crazy...
Notice the difference in the two... They both make me crazy, but in different ways... I love Jeff, but Hawk just makes me crazy. LOL. Hawk is my obsession.

I worked in another store yesterday. It was my day off, but the other manager called me... She is down to her and one other employee, in a 24-hour store... She needed help, so I went. *sigh* now I could use a day off.... Oh well. I have to work in my store from 4 - midnight. Was invited to Hawk's this morning ...I want to go, but I'm tired, and I don't want to make his wife upset... She has a beauty shop attached to the house, and when I show up during the day, some of her customers ask questions. Has to be awkward, I know.